從金鐘到我家：雨傘兩年後再撐

Abstract

這是何式凝作為一個公共知識分子，針對「雨傘運動」所撰寫的人類學式「參與觀察」論文。本文詳細闡述她作為一個性／性別學者、一個政治素人參與雨傘運動的經驗，以及這段經驗如何促使她反思自己對世界、對生命和對學術的理解。因為參與雨傘運動的經歷，她開始研究參與者經過這場運動之後，在個人、家庭、婚姻和感情生活方面的種種轉變，也必須重新修訂她在雨傘運動之前對「民主情人」這個概念的詮釋。過去她關注的是性別政治（genderpolitics）、性的政治（sexual politics），現在則不得不看看香港政治，或者是說宏觀的政治（macro political），所謂正規的政治（formal political process）如何影響我們處理自己的性別、愛情、家庭、婚姻和各種親密關係。她更嘗試用自己的個人經歷來閱讀比較主流的社會運動理論，希望能對資源動員理論（resource mobilization theory）（Edwards and McCarthy 2004; Tilly and Tarrow 2007）提出一些改善的建議，並進一步探索宏觀政治與微觀政治的關係。這篇論文結合了文化研究議題、人類學式反思，與個人反身式行動研究，也希望能對於雨傘運動提出一個特殊角度的理解。

Professor HO Sik Ying begins with a personal reflection on the relationship between participation in the Umbrella Movement and her academic and personal life during and after the Umbrella Movement. She shows the extent to which participation in the Movement had the capacity to change her personal life, academic career and perception of democratic struggle as a gender/sexuality scholar. She is now interested in both the politics of the personal and the personal consequences of the political especially as manifested in political processes. Her analysis of the overlap between the public and the private has created a space for the exploration of how work life, collegial relationships and different aspects of personal life can become sites of political engagement. When Ho first introduced the idea of a ‘democratic lover` in her work as a scholar of sexuality it referred to someone who prefers open to exclusive relationships and is not possessive. Thus they apply democratic principles to their relationships. Involvement with the Umbrella Movement has added a new element to this concept, focusing on how practices of democracy in intimate relationships must include dealing with differences in political stances and the conflicts involved. Her re-definition of the concept of `democratic lover` and reflexive accounts of self-transformation and description of various kinds of political actions vis-a-vis the Movement illuminate the limitations of resource mobilisation theories in addressing gender and power issues involved in women`s political participation. The article offers a unique perspective and interpretation of the Umbrella Movement.