「我寫故我在」 —— 年輕女性社群媒體之憂鬱貼文實踐

Abstract

本研究主欲瞭解年輕生理女性如何理解並透過社群網站之情緒書寫過程中詮釋自身的憂鬱情緒經驗以及他們獨特的發文以及刪文策略。並且透過內在自我反思的文字產出過程，探討年輕生理女性之間在電腦中介溝通（Computer-mediated Communication, CMC）之網路空間中，透過社群媒體自我揭露憂鬱情緒所帶來之療癒效果，以及年輕女性接收到的回饋，會如何影響其於社群媒體中的情緒貼文發表，和已發表貼文之處置。\n\n本研究以深度訪談的方式探索年輕女性在社群媒體上之憂鬱情緒發文以及刪文策略。著墨於「回饋」對於年輕女性帶來的影響。年輕女性普遍認為，若是以排解憂鬱情緒的前提進行發文，是一種過度憂鬱情緒的手段，情緒雖得以短暫地得到宣洩，但後續所帶來的負面回饋，卻會左右貼文去留；長期下來，也使年輕女性養成了發文後刪文的習慣。\n\n在本文的研究脈絡之中，年輕女性在社群媒體當中所接收到的負面回饋會逐漸累積形成刪文動機。然而，「典藏」（archive）功能的出現，使得年輕女性在發與刪之間有了喘息的空間。如此的適時運用，也有助於她們躲避在線上和線下不必要的注目和探問；不僅如此，嫻熟科技的年輕女性們，也因著能夠工具性地使用Instagram，進而塑造自己想要傳遞出來的形象，亦能夠開闢一條憂鬱情緒之逃逸路線。

This research aims to find out how young women interpret their own emotions of melancholy and how they are cultivated into using various tactics to express melancholy through posting/deleting on Instagram in a savvy way. By conducting the reflective process of writing down the event and the emotion it caused, the researcher eagers to discover whether it can achieve therapeutic effect by such expressive writing in a Computer-mediated Communication environment. Furthermore, after the young women post it, the follow-up action, such as deleting and archiving to the post will be discussed. And this research mainly focuses on how the feedback from others can have a certain impact on the post.\n\nIn-depth interview is conducted to collect and probe into the experience of young women on Instagram, especially the behavior of posting and deleting of the content that bears the emotion of melancholy. The result shows that, if they were to purge away their melancholy, posting about it will certainly help, yet it comes in limited effect due to the negative feedback following by the expressive words of the post. In a long run, this leads to young women to delete the post afterwards and gradually become a rooted habit.\n\nFinding also addresses that, accumulative negative feedbacks from others are the significant motive for young women to delete their post. However, the archive function gives the young women a room to breathe, blurring the boundary of only posting and deleting. By using the function adequately, they can avoid the unnecessary prying and attentions from both online and offline. What’s more, by utilizing their technology skills, they are able to forge their own public image and most importantly, finding ways to emancipate the melancholy by implementing the tactics of their own.